The difference between us

If i could tell you a story

Which would help you understand

You would only get stuck in between

My life is not as simple as it seem

Because my love was pure

But my eyes saw too grey

The difference between us

was what made us fail

Earlier on in time

When I were my life

And you were my good side

I was stuck within me

And i was too shallow for you

But i should have seen me through

Because my love is true

And we fit in separate ways

The difference between us

was what made us

Made us fail

And i realize now when i fell to low

Stuck with what is left to show

If my goal were just as sacred as my wretch

Maybe i'd be able to go

Because whats left is so small

And you're the missing part of it all

And maybe i might be too late

But i just want to say

The difference between us

is what make us so great

Thoughtless dreams

Im gonna tell you a romantic story,

not to be told with pride and glory.

Some things i dont want to say

When i was a younger person

My whole life were torn

I just wished to get away

But then i got drunk on power

I had many encounters

And of my sins i should have learned

And then i met my true desire,

a girl who put my heart on fire.

But you should know that fire make you burn

You made me rise,

but in the end i fall.

I could just grasp you,

never have it all.

The happy ending

was a fantasy.

I try to catch you,

in my thoughtless dreams~

Then there was the mad frustration,

I didnt know what I wanted and

Thus i stood with one foot in the grave

And the thing that no one had seen,

My sins were controlling me.

Gouged me out to an empty shell.

All that pain was quite a thrill,

Until that pain got me killed.

And now im stuck inside my urges.

You made me rise,

but in the end i fall.

I could just grasp you,

never have it all.

The happy ending

was a fantasy.

I try to catch you,

in my thoughtless dreams~

These poems have been written in blood,

and its mine.

And without you everything is a lie.

I cant help it but you'll always be here

in my mind.

The ending is for you to decide.

You made me rise,

but in the end i fall.

I could just grasp you,

never have it all.

The happy ending

was a fantasy.

I try to catch you,

in my thoughtless dreams~

The difference between us

If i began where i am

With my guitar and my jam

If i could tell you a story

Which would help you understand

You would only get stuck in between

My life is not as simple as it seem

Because my love was pure

But my eyes saw too grey

The difference between us

was what made us fail

made us fail

Earlier on in time

When I were my life

And you were my good side

I was stuck within me

And i was too shallow for you

But i should have seen me through

Because my love is true

And we fit in separate ways

The difference between us

was what made us

Made us fail

And i realize now when i fell to low

Stuck with what is left to show

If my goal were just as sacred as my wretch

Maybe i'd be able to go

Because whats left is so small

And you're the missing part of it all

And maybe i might be too late

But i just want to say

The difference between us

is what make us so great

Which one of us dies first?

In the dark

feel a yearning

tainted flesh and painless burning.

Your sweet torture.

Am i sane?

Will all my urges be in vain?

If all that ive dreamt of is lost in the light

Why would i want to see

and end to this night?

I want to pierce your soul with my wicked meat,

I want to taste your fear and your agony.

My body tor

n by thorns and your wretched mind.

The question is which one of us dies first.

If it is laughter

That make you cry

Is that the part of you that wants to die?

But if it's hurting that make you pleased

I understand why you'd want me,

to fight all your battles and die by your sword.

For you my life i'd afford.

I want to pierce your soul with my wicked meat,

I want to taste your fear and your agony.

My body torn by thorns and your wretched mind.

The question is which one of us dies first.

Silent hill

Im walking slowly up on this abandoned hill,
thinking about all the mistakes ive done in my awful life.
The sorrow are digging itself closer and closer to my black heart.
Yes, all of it is pure black.....Almost
I dont want to live here anymore, but my body isnt even worth to die.
Why? I dont know....it just feels that way....
I cant die today....My heart might be black, but if you look closely,
you will see a tiny bright spot....Its that spot makes my life worth living.
....A while
In that spot exists everyone that actually care about me....it is in that spot that you exist.
Even when my life seem to be completely covered in darkness, i know that you are out there to be the light that will guide me out of it.
Will it stay that way forever?
Or will that spot never shine again?
Will you join me....On my silent hill

Blood Masquerade part 5: Regaining life

He fell and fell...He thought of the song he had heard...he knew where he had recognized it from...
Suddenly wings grew out of his back...Huge darkviolet wings....
He wanted to fly to the planet so much that he grew wings....
And flew he did
He flew through the surroundings of stars and vaacum, searching for the place where the song came from.
Was it the one he had loved, the one he had sacrificed his life for, the one he had sacrificed every living human for, every angel and every demon...
As time flew by, he saw a planet far away, the darkness flowing from it made him hesitate...
But his love to the angel wudnt let him go...
He approached the planet and landed on it...the ground was cold and made of solid rock...
He put his ear to the ground, and listened to the song....
It was Jigokus voice, indeed it was....
Suddenly, a thought struck him...
"Where's Eve", he said with a voice filled with rage
Someone else had flew after The demon and was standing right beside him...
"We dont know, master, we have searched the whole underworld and midworld... The only possible place left for her to be is in her paradise, And her paradise is the entrance to Overworld"
"Will i ever be able to let Jigoku free", the demon said with a slight sadness in his words...
"The only thing you can do now is to return to Overworld to see what the valkyries can tell you...Even if you wanted to defeat Eve wou wouldnt be able to, she is too strong and you have weakened in your abscence, and it would only be a waste of time..."
The demon stood up and raised his wings...
"From here ill find the way myself....Thankyou for guiding me", he said and took off...

Darkraven stayed at earth for a while, she sat down and watched the demon disappear in the distance...
"Thankyou for leading him to me", said a voice behind her
"Somehow, i think it wont be that easy for you to defeat him this time Eve", she said and turned around....
There wasn't anyone there, the song had vanished and the earth were silent...

I love you

I love youthose three words that mean so much. We use it too often. Making it just sound like whispers in a terrible storm. Theres no longer words to explain my feelings for you. If i only could tear my heart out and give it to you, Just to show you...

There is 2 parts in my heart. One huge dark piece, where all the memories of my life is stored. Sadness, pain. And then there is that little bright piece that enlighten the darkness. That is were you are...

Without you i would walk around in the shadows, Nothing but a ghost in a shell. Everytime i hear your voice, see you smile, my whole being feels like a dream of happiness and joy. You make me live. You make the blood circulate through my veins. You make me happy enough to work myself through this hell of mine, To one day break free and come to the heaven were you are god. A paradise were only you and i exist. Until then, just stay, wait for me...

I am your devoted slave. I beg you, please show me mercy, Please me mine. I will wait for you forever, Even in death, when im not here anymore, I will be a ghost that forever whisper in your ears, I love you...

So damn fucking much that my heart explodes, Shredded into blooded pieces of lonelyness. All the times when im feeling lonely, which most of my time awake, even when i sleep, dreaming, thinking of you. It makes me want to cry, makes me want to hit someone until they cant move, makes me want to hurt myself, to feel physical pain, instead of the mental pain in my heart. To know that you are not here, here with me, right now, it makes me want to die...

But i cant, because i know that you are there, waiting for me, longing for me. At least so i hope. But i believe in you, I trust you with my life. Its an immortal, eternal love. A promise written down in blood, that one day, you will be mine, and i will be yours. I am yours,forever...

My dreams, the nightmares, that i will never meet you, the paradise of sleeping, the dreams when you are with me, to see you smile, to be with you 24/7, forever. Just to hold you in my arms, to hug you tightly, would make my life great. It would be like living at the sun, it would burn me to death, i would melt from inside out in notime. But i would die happy. Just one moment of love...

Love from a god to someone like me. Insane but not impossible. Cause you are my goddess. To turn hell into heaven, my hell, an impossible task for anyone, except you. That, is why you are my goddess. Stay with me...

I love your voice. I love the way you are, your interests, everything you do. Just to know that you like me should enough. But i need you, everyday, to not hear your voice for one day, its just impossible. Im reserved for you. There is not a living thing that could measure itself against you...

To be with you, that would be, well,its impossible to describe how it would be.Such words do not exist, not in this world. The only thing i live for, is to hear your voice tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that. I assume you get the picture. Or...do you actually get the picture. I suppose you do. I love you,like friggin hell.

Jag vill bara att det ska vara föralltid,du och jag,en fusion. Två personer som älskar varandra så mycket. Allt jag vill är att det ska fungera.Att jag kommer få vara med dig, Förr eller senare. Jag tillhör dig.

Nothing but a mere demon, ill follow you, forever...

Snow

Why do everyone i care about have this problems all the time.
Im stuck in a hell,
impossible to help,
impossible to show them how i feel,
to show them how real love is.
A snowfall of ashes painting me black
,making it harder to breath for every day.
The murderers...
Killing souls of purity,
throwing dirt on clean white sheets.
And you seek them,
you long for them,
you want them.
You cant live without the hell.
If i have to,
i will create the absolute apocalypse,
ill destroy hell.
I can see bloodstains on my hands.
They are growing the closer it is to that day.
Ill take their blood and pour it allover my body.
Hurt myself with holly tattoos.
Snakes,
Mirrors,
Let me take the pain you got in your hearts.
Fill me with it until ill fade away,
fade away into the manor of dreams,
forever haunting that mansion.
And i will take them with me,
i will put them to sleep.
Make them sleep forever.
Over that manor,
there will always be a snowfall.
No not snow,
Ashes...

Fukeiki ryuu touhou...

Death of the demon Part 3: Love goes on

You woke me up....for what reason...let me be....in the nirvana of your soul....at least....when im there....i dont feel anything....when im awake you make me feel pain, anger, hate....its your fault...im only here to make you live....without me....you'd be dead by now....so tell me....why did you awake me....what do i have to do...

Kill them....kill them all.....i chose wrong....they did it....destroyed eat....ate the pieces of my rotten corpse like vultures from hell....let me have your rage....make me invincible....MAKE ME KING....

Your mad....as i slept i went into you....and she spoke to me....fukeiki....she spoke to me....she will always be there for you....she IS you....she is bound to follow.....just as i am....we are the same person...forever....you will hear our whispers from deep inside of you....until death do us apart, right?...

So its true....as she said....we belong to each other....quietly walking through our own hell....we are always together even if were far away from each other....i cant reach her but yet she is here....deep inside of me....impossible to take her away....

Let us share it....let me BE you....we can be ONE.....please....let me feel love, happiness and pleasure.....you already have my rage so you wont get anything new....neither will you loose anything....take me to the deep bottoms of your heart.....fusioned for life....we, demons, will pass through, the gates to heaven.....there she will wait for us....we will be forsaken by the gods....all of us....but it is worth it, right?....to be with her is worth anything.....even in death....even in nirvana.....we are together....forever...