Part two: Deadlocked

I said bad stuff...i dont know what i did, but it was wrong....to hurt someone you love that much...

To live in sin, pure darkness, tore the demon apart, sacrificed for a deadlocked eternity...pushed up to a wall, nowhere to go but backwards....slowly....until you hit the wall...there is NO TURNING BACK!!!

"My life is filled with broken promises and empty dreams" - Marshal Mathers

Im not dreaming...ive realised that now....theres no goal in my life, only twisted theories of life...illusions, fantasies, dreams...kill me, kill me now, kill me fast, kill me slowly, let me bleed and suffer forever...Lock me up inside gehenna, angel of darkness...

My life is only darkness....a huge nothing...living to die in the end...such a pity, to even think that my life could be better, such a pity...Love me with your empty hearts, use me as your tool...It doesnt matter to me...Im not alive, i am dead, walking as a ghost...eating things that dont taste...smelling things that i cant scent...seeing things though im blind...touching things...but only pass through...Lock me up inside nirvana, angel of blood...

I just want to say goodbye...but people like to watch this ghost...it amuses them...if this ghost would leave...then they would be bored...until they find another joyful thing...

Maybe i should leave....

I was filled with darkness....until sunshine lightened me up...but then, all of a sudden...there was the deepest dark of it all...threatened to life by a wall of bricks...who is pushing me towards it?...Why are they pushing me toward it?...

Im a ghost....i will pass through the wall....and fall forever...

Thank you