Blood masquerade part 1: The dream

I dont wanna live anymore....my scissor is tearing my skin and veins apartThe blood flows out of my wrist...I just want this to end quickly...But it doesnt...I start to realise something is wrong when my bed becomes wet..I look around my room...the floor is covered in blood...This much cant come from me....i look at my wrist,it have turned into a huge dark hole were a stream of blood is running out of.I run to the door of my room...there isnt any door...I watch the blood fill the room...The time goes and the stream gets more violent....soon it turns into a river...

My room is almost filled with blood now...I gasp for air at the little space at the roof...I dive...I can see the river in my arm...how do i stop this...but...the river have changed direction.Now it runs into my arm instead....it moves awa from my arm and becomes a huge hole in the wall.Everything gets sucked into the hole....i try to grab onto something but everything goes away.Im going into the hole too...I let myself go with the river...This must be what happens when you die, i think...But i dont feel dead...

Suddenly...the river stops flowing...i swim upwards...or is it downwards...i dont know.Time and space dont exist in this place...I dont need to breath...i dont feel cold or warm.I swim and i swim...and i reach air....or is it air...i dont need it anyway, im invulnerable now.There is a small island right in front of me...i keep swimming until i reach it...im climbing up on it.Its so small...i can see all the edges of the island...Around it is a HUGE ocean of blood...nothing to be seen...
After sitting down for what feels like days on the small island...whole the ocean starts to whirl...Flames rise up from the ocean...now i cant see the blood anymore...i walk over to the fire,Reaching out for it...I dont feel it..A hand grabs onto me...i try to get away from it but it wont let me go..."dont let go"...I turn around...a tiny girl is standing right next to me...she got a bright voice...

"hold onto the hand...it is your soul, caught in the darkness...you cant live without a soul"

The hand pulls me...and i let myself get swallowed by the flames...